The Little Girl

I think I used to hide it on purpose, or maybe I just pushed it away somehow in my quick maturing, whether I decided to mature fast or was forced to or both. For whatever reason i grew up quickly and kinda shoved it to the side.
A friend's dad put it this way.
Ever since he's known me he's known this young woman who is very grown up for her age and much more intelligent or intellectual than your average teenage girl. She's always staying busy, always doing her best and even raising the standards. Putting forth more effort and pushing the limits

but somewhere inside of her is a little girl

and shes hurting. She wants to have fun. She wants to just be a little girl for whatever reason, she didnt get to be, not like she wanted.She's a part of me. I cant just forget about it or get rid of it. Its just another part of who I am and when I push that side of me away for too long i get unhappy with who I am, with who I've become because that's my sensitive side. But sometimes I feel like I'm too emotional, weak, and its my fault. And I believe that I let myself get that way so I just want to remove that sensitivity from my being. So I end up confused. I don't like feeling weak and helpless as a little girl. I want to be independent. Or so I think. But then I realize how little I really am and how dangerous it can be if I lost that little girl side of me, how heartless I can become if I ignore her.